A little song
Happy 43 weeks to me!
PS--Oh, you all want an actual update too? My witty song is not enough for you? ;)
I am doing fine. I have a little breakdown every day or two, and the rest of the time I am pretty peaceful and calm about this whole thing. I'm finding it easier to be patient now than it was 3 weeks ago, actually. The waiting is not that hard, most of the time, and I don't feel ready to do anything to try to get the baby out. I feel lucky that my MW does not have any deadlines as long as baby and I both continue to be healthy. I feel blessed that I have so much support from her, from Derek, from friends and family, even from others I've met online who are as overdue as I am.
I am human, no stronger or more amazing than any other woman. Sometimes I complain or cry or despair. Sometimes little doubts creep into my mind. It is hard to shake the voices that whisper that being pregnant this long is dangerous and that I should do something. But if my body is spending so much energy keeping this baby in, it just makes sense to me that he must *need* to be there for some reason. I trust that even as I wonder why. I believe that waiting is safer than intervening right now. Still, I am so ready to see my baby, to hold him, and know that he is healthy and fine--and I have told him that often! But he waits, and so do we...
The big kids are doing great. They continue to both amaze and challenge me every day, as every child should do. ;)
Oh Tara ... I can't imagine how TIIIIRED you must be, in every way. I think
of you every day and hope this little guy makes his arrival very soon! What
do your midwives think? Will they let you go as long as you need/want? Have
they given you cohosh, etc to try and get things started? How are YOU
feeling about everything? BIG.HUGS!!
Love your song... It would have been enough for me. I am hoping that if we
go to K.C. in the next few weeks to see my SIL that we might be able to
stop over for a peek at your family and to give hugs all around. I'll let
you know if we plan on going up there or not. It would really be a shame
to be only a few block from you and not get the pleasure of your families
company. W really misses Aiden. I really miss you.
I am SOOO proud of you Tara! You are doing awesome and I can feel how much
more calm you are from your words now and that makes me feel better. Just
when you give up, and resign to be pregnant until Christmas, he'll come ;-)
You are my hero- I visited your family pictures, and you are so radiant and
beautiful even in the 42 week picture. As I scrolled through, I guess I
expected to see one where you're pulling out your hair or wild-faced and
frothing at the mouth but not at all, you look beautiful.
Just wanted to say again that I'm thinking of you. I hope you are doing ok.
At last my great nephew has arrived & on what was his great grandmas
birthday.
Hope everyone is resting now but now the real herd work begins.
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